Whos knows?!

I do not recomend "Xephedrine" to anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got it, took it and lost weight as soon as the first day as I took the first pill!
They are very addicting, Cos if you are like me a extremesat at loosing every pound on my
fat bastered body..Then you will take to many of them in one day and even more then you should take in one hour.
Lets just say I took over five "Xephedrine" in one day!
It was a stupid thing I did!
I took over that many not knowing it could kill me!
My heart was pounding and I don't know really how to explain how I felt.
But it made me feel so damn bad!!
All I can say is DON'T take it!
You will get hooked on them cos you loose weight quick!
It's not worth having someone you Love being stuck in the hospital with you and ruining thier christmas eve....
I did I believe I ruinned his holiday....I never want to make him unhappy, but the only thing I'm good at is
making everyone around me unhappy.
Thats what my parents always told me and if it wasn't true they would have never said it...

Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels.

I had ordered xyphedrine and got it yesterday, My ohh my.
It works wonders!!
I started taking it the day I got it so I've been in it two day and lost just about 5 pounds,
In two days!
This stuff give me so much energy and I feel so good!
I'm going to buy more as soon as I'm out.
Now all I eat every day is xyphedrine for breakfest.
And thats my only meal!
I'm getting thinnier but on the down side I'm loosing some of my hair and I'm cold all the time.
But it's woth it!
Sometimes I hate my ED, Cos I can't stand having change in my life.
Like I can't even go for a run on a different path because my body just won't run anyother way but the same ways every day.
Even the smallest change scars me...
I feel like life isn't even worth living, No one cares about what I do,say,think or even if I live or die.
I just want some one to care about me and show me they care about me!
Is that really to much to ask for?
The one person I love doesn't even care or give a shit about anything.
I mean am I really stupid, worthless and not worth someone loving and caring about me?
Because I really do feel I'm worthless!
I just want to be perfect, So some one will love and care about me.
  

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork

I have a question does lipovox and hydroxycut work and if so witch one works best and were can you get them?
And what other diet pills work the best and were can you buy them?
I have now lost 15 pound!
Since the last two days I was at my my bf's parents house staying the night there
with our baby.
He tryed to get me to eat, But I said I wasn't hungry...
Witch was  a lie, I was hungry as hell.
And all they eat is high calorie food and drink mounin-dew.
When me and him went to bed I felt like dying cos my stomch kept growling!!
I only hope he was in a really dead sleep and didn't hear a thing.
I came back home yesterday and damn did I hear it from my so called parents.
They told me a whole bunch of B/S and they even through my cat out side.
That cat is mine and she is the only thing I have left from when my grandparents were alive!
It hit my like a bomb I was out side in the dark and cold looking for her until I found her.
And now they act like nothing happend, like everthing is alright....
I can't wait to move out of this house cos my baby will not grow up living here!

Live For Nothing Or Die For Something

I will be thin even if it kills me.
"Live for nothing or die for something" said by that Rocky actor from the movie the expendables,
I watch that today with my boyfriend.
I was a little happy todayI lost another two pounds, But today was my days birthday
and he had Charlie stay over for dinner, So that made it impossible to get out of dinner.
So I had to eat pizza, Luckley no one was paying that much attention to me so all I ate was
one piece and the smallest piece at that.
Now I have to exorsice like a crazy women tonight.
I am dropping these nasty pounds quick but not quick enough.
I really need to find something that will get rid of these stretch marks of my belly!
For such a small baby she really stretched me out to the max!!!
Well I'm off, I just felt like doing a little blog before I go workout..

How many pounds till im happy?

How many pounds till im happy? How many pounds till im thin? Three more pounds till im skinny,Three more pounds and I win."

I have lost 12 pounds in two weeks, I will be 120 by christmas.
Althoigh I lost 12 pounds it doesn't look it!
I hate looking at myself every time I pass by a mirror...Even my boyfriend siad last night I still look the same,
Still fat,fat,fat.....
Soon he won't be able to call me fat and mean it and won't be able to call me fat even in a joking way!
Becaus I will not have the tinyiest bit of gut on my.
I will be as light as a feather!I was 145 lbs but now I'm 134 lbs, I'm getting this nasty after baby weight 
off me quick!!
I'm never getting pregnant again,Cos I can't stand all the weight I gained from it.
 

My Distorted Self-Image

I've had Eating Disorders since I was twelve.
I started with bulimia then it went to anorexia.
An I still have ED's to this day.
I have a distorted self-image.
I'll I see when I look in the mirror is a fat cow, Looking back at me.
And can you guess who that "Fat Cow" is?
It's me, Of course.
I see huge legs, Huge arms, big fat huge belly and a chubbie face.
I don't want to see that anymore.
I just want to be thin.
I see people eat and intake all that fat and all those calorie.Is that what people really won't is to look like a fat bastard?
How can they eat and eat?
Your suppose to eat to live NOT live to eat!That is so disgusting!
Food is the DEVIL! It'll only bring you one step closer to looking like Fat Bastard.People who stuff thier face uncontrolable and eat whatever they want make me sick!
Bones define who we really are, let them show!
Don't hide yourself underneath all that fat,Because it's gross!I am uncomfortable with the way I look I can't not wear a big baggy hoodie for one day,
Because I am afaid someone will see my big belly gut and huge arms.
This is the 2end of December and I've lost 11 pounds this month.So now I am down to 135, But on Christmas day I will be 120.
Hopefully I will weigh less though.
And if your a fat cow you will never be loved or have anybody to share your life with.
No one wants a fat ass!!
I work out everyday all day, I lock myself in my room and go at it.
I have to to fourhundred situps,fourhundred jumping jacks and ride the exercising bike for two hours or more.
And what ever other exercises that burn all this fat and calories..
I was happy when I was 16 and 100 lbs.
But being thinnier then 100 lbs would make me happier!
I DON"T won't this big gut I have or theses huge legs,thighs,arms and chubbie face..
Every time I see a girl I compare myself to her!