I just listened to "Creep by Radiohead" never heared it before and now it's my new favorite song! <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5mNNsZeu7c
I'm sitting here watching thinspiration...I want to be thin and pretty so damn much.
I have been trying to eat, To make my boyfriend happy.
But he don't care if I eat or not, I know cos he told me, Even if he did I can't do this nol more!!
I can't eat I wheigh 125lbs now!
I am so huge, So FAT!!
I couldn't takeit any longer, we ate about an hour ago and I felt to stuffed I felt so sick because I hate that feeling, Ya know?
So I purged for the first time in awhile and that felt so good to get to empty feeling again!
Eating is for the birds. I don't need food.
Anywho on to a different subject..
My boyfriend........Sometimes I just can't stand him never mind it's all of the time I can't stand him!!
He says the most hatefull things all the time so we never get along, Like he says he's joking but that doesn't matter, You don't tell your girlfriend that you don't want to have sex with her because once you've been with her so long it gets old doing it with the same women!
I feel like the ugyiest person alive and him not wanting me in that way makes me feel uglyer!
I want to be beautifull and sexy, I want someone to want me in everyway they should want thier own girlfriend/lover always.
I love him and I don't feel that way about him! Does he not really love me? Is that why it feels that way about me?
I wanna know why!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
The Other Mother.
You know who I am saying when I'm talking about the other mother!!
Your boyfriends "mother" The ones that way to bossy and go over your bounderies.. OMG
They can be such a pain in the you know what!
I live with my bf at his dads place and his mom comes over to the house way to much I think.
I can't stand her, Here's one example,
I just get done feeding my baby her bottle and she starts cry like babys do after they eat they cry coz they
get tired, So I'm holding her trying to comb her down so she can go to sleep, Right?
And his mother say bring her to me, I said no it's okey I got it!
she insists again "Bring her to me!" But this time louder, So I bring my little peyton to her and
She says my baby is mad at me that she doesn't want to to hold her at that time coz I made her mad.
So she trys to comb her down herself and peyton just keep on crying and getting louder.
I know she's crying because she tired, And his mother just won't let me comb her down myself.
I mean I am her mother I need to be the one to comb her down when she's crying right?
I'm her mother thats my job!
His mother does it all the time!!
I'm so sick of it.
Your boyfriends "mother" The ones that way to bossy and go over your bounderies.. OMG
They can be such a pain in the you know what!
I live with my bf at his dads place and his mom comes over to the house way to much I think.
I can't stand her, Here's one example,
I just get done feeding my baby her bottle and she starts cry like babys do after they eat they cry coz they
get tired, So I'm holding her trying to comb her down so she can go to sleep, Right?
And his mother say bring her to me, I said no it's okey I got it!
she insists again "Bring her to me!" But this time louder, So I bring my little peyton to her and
She says my baby is mad at me that she doesn't want to to hold her at that time coz I made her mad.
So she trys to comb her down herself and peyton just keep on crying and getting louder.
I know she's crying because she tired, And his mother just won't let me comb her down myself.
I mean I am her mother I need to be the one to comb her down when she's crying right?
I'm her mother thats my job!
His mother does it all the time!!
I'm so sick of it.
Better to love then to never love at all
Have you ever loved some one with all of your heart, But later on loose some of that love for that special someone?
Well I'm one of those unlucky people who has that problem...
I love him, But it feels like a 85% kinda love!
You know when you have that first date with a guy and you start to really fall for him?
Then that one date leads to another date then another date and ten more date....ect
Then he asks you to be his "Girlfriend"
What does that really mean, You now the word "Girlfriend"?
I don't know what it's suppose to mean but anyways back to the subject.
After awhile when you Bf & Gf he say those three little words that make your heart stop,
"I Love You"......Then everything changing.
You fall inlove with him, You have unpertected sex, get pregnant then move in with him, Get to know his real self and there goes everthing....You both fall apart, You realize your just two totally different
with nothing in commen anymore.
You argue every second of every minute of every day!!
You know them guys who tell you what to do,say,wear and what not to do,who you can talk to and can't talk to,were you can't go cuz they don't want you to go there because there are men...ect
Like "HELLO" there are men everywere you go they are at the gas-station,walmart, walking on the street, They are everywere.....And I'm one of the girls the one that take a relashionship seriously so if
I know theres men walking around I don't even look at then even if I'm just hangin out with the girls and their like look at him he's so hot no looking for me, I don't want to look because I have a man so there no need to look at anyother.
I have a policy, I won't do anything to you that I don't want done to me, No cheating, No googling at others "Coz googling is so very rude" No saying hatefull things that you will later on regret,No lying and don't say you love me if you really don't.
If you say you love someone you have to know what love means!!!
To a women that word mean everything....Well to me it means everything.
Well I'm one of those unlucky people who has that problem...
I love him, But it feels like a 85% kinda love!
You know when you have that first date with a guy and you start to really fall for him?
Then that one date leads to another date then another date and ten more date....ect
Then he asks you to be his "Girlfriend"
What does that really mean, You now the word "Girlfriend"?
I don't know what it's suppose to mean but anyways back to the subject.
After awhile when you Bf & Gf he say those three little words that make your heart stop,
"I Love You"......Then everything changing.
You fall inlove with him, You have unpertected sex, get pregnant then move in with him, Get to know his real self and there goes everthing....You both fall apart, You realize your just two totally different
with nothing in commen anymore.
You argue every second of every minute of every day!!
You know them guys who tell you what to do,say,wear and what not to do,who you can talk to and can't talk to,were you can't go cuz they don't want you to go there because there are men...ect
Like "HELLO" there are men everywere you go they are at the gas-station,walmart, walking on the street, They are everywere.....And I'm one of the girls the one that take a relashionship seriously so if
I know theres men walking around I don't even look at then even if I'm just hangin out with the girls and their like look at him he's so hot no looking for me, I don't want to look because I have a man so there no need to look at anyother.
I have a policy, I won't do anything to you that I don't want done to me, No cheating, No googling at others "Coz googling is so very rude" No saying hatefull things that you will later on regret,No lying and don't say you love me if you really don't.
If you say you love someone you have to know what love means!!!
To a women that word mean everything....Well to me it means everything.
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